Friday, March 03, 2006

I Took A Chance Today...

Many of us revel in the anonymity of the internet, myself included. After all, that's not my real name up there. With the shield of privacy, we can say things we would never say under other circumstances.

I parted that veil a bit today. I've done it before, sure. But only with people I've known better. And I did it not just today, but also about ten days ago with someone else. I can't help but have some nerves about it. Both of the women I've taken this chance with in the last couple weeks are fairly unknown entities to me. I have a feeling that I can trust both of them, but that's all. It's just a feeling. How often have you been wrong with those instincts? With me, it has been often enough that I should know better.

Sure, I can plead male idiocy...I mean, they are both attractive young women and I'm a little older. In truth, both are young enough to literally be my daughter. And it's not like I'm trying to manipulate either of them. Oh, I flirt. But I think they both know that I'm not the kind of guy who would ever be comfortable in the aggressive asshole role.

Both of them know me professionally. That puts me at risk. I don't work in an atmosphere that encourages that kind of personal connection. So why did I do such a foolish thing?

I'm not trying to play games. But I admit to having an appreciation for both of them. Simply put, any man at any age post-puberty would be thrilled with receiving their attention. So why did I take it to the next step?

*sigh* I have no idea.

2 comments:

Alessia Brio said...

I know why, and I'll tell you if you ask me really, really nicely.

Sherri said...

If it comes as any comfort, after some 6 years weblogging and too many more than that online, I've surrendered the illusion of anonymity. Really, anyone with time and $50 can find out a scary amount about you. Unless you are protecting others who cannot protect themselves, someone with enough determination can part the veil.

In other news, I'm enjoying the read, so I'll be stopping by. If you haven't already, you might consider some link tracking software -- referals are fun :>